I wanted to take a minute to stop by and to tell you that you don’t need to be perfect. The imperfect is the perfect. Because we were all meant to be different and unique and no two days, moments, or people are ever the same.
I am finding as I go through this challenge that I have created for myself I am healing so much more that I thought I would or could. Every single day I fight the urge to be perfect in “fulfilling” my goals. And every single day I find that it is easier to let more and more go. Yes I am working toward goals, Yes I am working on me and giving myself time. But it’s so easy to get caught up in fulfilling those goals at all costs, even if it’s to the detriment of ourselves.
So, how have I honestly been doing? Most days I fulfill most of my goals, and the days I don’t, I know why and what for. I know that it takes 21 days to form a habit, but as I miss my goal for that day I often know why. And refusing to beat myself up for life happening, but also refusing to make excuses for myself is a healthy habit forming in and of itself. When I started this challenge I wanted to form the habit of truly using, every single day, many of the tools I have at my disposal when it comes to helping clients. I often get caught up in helping others so much that I forget to turn it around and help myself! I am finding that I feel SO. DAMN. GOOD. these days. Using reiki and Psych-K everyday for myself. Making the time to meditate. Getting my water in. Allowing myself to indulge in me. Exercising every day. But again, the habit that has been the most helpful is ebbing and flowing and knowing that even when I don’t check that box off that I am perfect and the day I just had was perfect.
Lastly, I wanted to also be transparent about the fact that I am meant to be re-healing old eating disorder wounds this summer and I am doing just that. Working through my previous orthorexia and binge eating that I thought was healed but has come up in a new way this summer. Brought itself to light so that I can continue to heal. I want you to remember that when old wounds come back up it’s an opportunity to heal that issue on a deeper level. It’s for sure not a failure, or falling back into old habits. Look at where you can grow, what you can learn, and what you can heal deeper to move yourself even farther past those wounds.
So tonight I felt like I just wanted to come and remind you that even if you didn’t get that workout in. Or if you yelled at your kids. Or you didn’t have the best day at work. Or you forgot to do something “important”. Or you lived off of Cheetos and ice cream today. Or you had a fight with a friend. Whatever, it was. That the perfection is in the imperfection.